In some personal news if anyone cares I have done a deep dive on my own mental health issues with my psychiatrist and therapist and I think when I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, it was mistake. For a while it looked like I was headed for an autism diagnosis, but that doesn’t feel right since I hate routine and love novelty, which is the opposite of how most autistics […]
i have been very busy the last couple of months. I wrote a short story to submit to writers of the future, so we’ll see what happens with that. Then I wrote an paranormal romance novella I plan to release this fall sometime. It’s a gay love story with ghosts! Very different than anything I’ve ever written before, not least because it takes on modern day earth. Between The Sacred
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I have been busy the last month or so. Mostly writing, but also doing other things, like taking guitar lessons, and spending time with my grandchildren. I have been writing 2000 words a day, 4 times a week since last September, and that is a pretty good pace, but especially after having a pretty low word count in May, I decided I wanted to get to doing 10,000
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April was kind of a traumatic month. Some great things happened, most notably the birth of my grandson, but we almost lost my daughter in the process. Some other family stuff happened that I really can’t go into publicly, but it was several degrees of bad. But I got through it. I managed to only lose my shit a couple of times. I maintained as much as I
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Today is Easter Sunday, and Easter has always been a special holiday for me, because it commemorates a cycle of renewal and rebirth. I no longer consider myself a Christian, but the resurrection is the part of the story of Jesus that makes the rest of it matter. If I still believe in anything – which some days I do, and some days I don’t—it’s in the person of
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I heard the now Grammy-winning Brothers Osborne song, Younger Me, today and really listened to it for the first time. And it kind of got me in my feelings a little, thinking about my relationship with my younger self. I was so angry with him for the longest time. I thought he had ruined our life, that he’d been a coward. And yeah, there were sometimes he could have been
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I am not at the point in my life where I have begun thinking about its ending. Maybe I just have some weird subconscious idea that I am immortal? But I have been thinking about things I’d like to do while I’m still young and healthy enough to enjoy them. Is this a bucket list? You could call it that. I don’t love that term, but it’s the term we
Yesterday, someone I know hit me with a ‘love the sinner, hate the sin,’ and my initial reaction was like ‘Wow! Fuck you too!’ I didn’t say this, of course. I didn’t react at all. The person meant well, I think, but that is just such a classic microaggression, and it’s not hard to understand why I have such a visceral negative reaction to it. I think it’s
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The other morning, I was awash in gratitude. Gratitude for my life, and the people who are in it. Grateful for my two jobs. Grateful that I have a home that I love. Grateful that my body is healthy. I have not always felt this way. I spent a lot of years at war with myself, hating myself, hating all of the things that I was and resenting all of
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I’ve been listening to the audiobook of Brene Brown’s Atlas of the Heart, and it’s led me to a revelation. I love Brown’s work as a researcher, how she explicates our inner emotional landscapes and describes how our inner needs drive us. I don’t always agree 100% with her definitions, but she always gives me something to think about. Anyway, Atlas of the Heart is an attempt to map and